"Oh ye of little faith"

So in my previous post I mentioned how on the Monday before school things seemed perfect. I felt as if it were Heavenly Fathers way of telling me that this was all meant to be and we were meant to move here. Then Tuesday my world was torn apart. Or at least in the moment that's how it felt. Well first off I knew that this was where we were meant to be long before the Monday before school. I knew we were suppose to move when we posted it and we got our perfect renter (let's just hope they are when we go into the house after the lease is up). Then we went through some miracles when we found the house we are living in now. Then there was my calling and of course the great people that we have met and have already touched our lives. So for me to think that having the perfect teacher and a primary girl in Shay's class was the clincher on whether we had made the right choice only showed my lack of faith. Especially when it all went down the tube. Okay so it didn't actually cause me to question our move, but it made me question if I made the right choice for Shay and going only half day. So since then I have to say that I am 100% happy with my decision. I thought before that life was perfect when Shay had the best teacher and friend in her class, but I've since realized that everything has just recently become "perfect" as we've met with her new teacher and learned what her day will be like in her new class. First, I'll be blunt and say that I got a better first impression with her original teacher, but all in all everything sounds much better with her new one. So here's what made it perfect in my eyes.....

- First (I know there are alot of firsts in this post) , she ONLY has 13 kids in her class! How likely is that in a public school to only have 13 children in a class room. Obviously as kids move into the school boundaries they'll be assigned to her class, but still 13!!!! I'm sooo excited for Shaylee. She will get more hands on and more attention. The teacher will be able to help the students individually and know what areas they need to be more challenged in.
-Her teacher in the past taught 1st grade- I love this because she knows exactly what they need to know next year. After teaching Sunbeams I had a better understanding of what I need to do to prepare my own children for primary/sunbeams.
- Being that the class is so small she will be able to cover the material in less time so Shay will get to do some of those activities that she would have been left out on in her original class. Like....
-art
-library time
-music time
-computer lab
-I also feel that this will help her get closer to her classmates being that there's 13 (or 12 not counting her) rather than 30.
- All her classmates will go home at the same time rather than half her friends leaving to lunch while she's leaving to go home
- and most of all she gets to come home at 11:30
Seriously I feel like I got the best of both worlds. No she doesn't get as much time as the other kids do with the extra curricular activities, but she still gets to do them and again I GET TO HAVE HER HOME!!!!!
- oh yeah................and it's FREE!!!!

So I thought I better write a post about this since I gave you my whole sob fest. Things are good. Life is good and I seriously couldn't be happier with all of this. So I will not doubt my faith again...... okay I'm gonna try really hard not to, but I AM human.

Mixed Feelings

Monday 2:30pm

Life is good. We just found out that Shaylee got the "best" kindergarten teacher and that her new bff from primary is also in her class. We get her a new school shirt for spirit day on Fridays, get her lunch card all set up, and say a quick hello to her new teacher. Kinder Orientation is tomorrow so once we get done what we need to we are off to enjoy the rest of our day. Again, life is good.... things have worked out perfectly and it just puts the icing on the cake for our whole move up North. At this point it's just obvious to me how this was all meant to be.

Tuesday 2:00pm

Life has taken a turn...... it's not soooo pretty anymore. I had previously been looking online to find out when the half day kindergarten ends and had no luck. Everything I read said that ALL elementary kids are in school from 8:00-2:30. I started to have a little hope that this was just more icing on the cake and that maybe soooo many parents paid for all day kinder that they just made is all day kinder, but I apparently had my head too far in the clouds because just as I thought things were getting even better we were informed that they just got approval for a new teacher and that the few kids that were doing half day would be moved into the new class. My excitement of having the best teacher for my child and her having a friend in the class was short lived. Not only that,but the teacher then went on to explain that the half day kids will also be left out of the art, p.e., music, library, and computer time. That part I was some what prepared for. I knew that they couldn't teach the full day kids more than the half day so me paying would mean that we would be missing out on the extracurricular activities. It's just that much sadder sitting in the classroom hearing about all the excitement and knowing my child wont be participating in it. In that way I'm glad that all the half day kids will be in the same class so Shay doesn't have to stare at all the other kids artwork on the walls that she wasn't there for. I guess I just looked at paying for full day kinder the same as paying for daycare and I don't need that or want that. Now I guess I'm just afraid that Shaylee's gonna be really sad that she's missing out on all the fun stuff. Not only that, but I thought that she'd have lunch at school before going home and we were informed that the half day kids leave while the other kids are going to lunch so that lunch card I got is gonna come in REAL handy. Overall, yesterday turned out to be a bad day. You're probably wondering why I'm making such a big deal about this..... after all she's only in kindergarten, but I guess finding all this out made me really question if I made the right decision. Will Shay go through this year sad that she's missing out on all this extra fun stuff?

Wednesday 8pm

We wake up excited for the first day of school. I'm making breakfast as Shay comes in with some classic first day drama (more to come with this story on our family blog), but we make it to school on time and we're feeling a little better. By we I mean me. I've excepted that this is just the way it's gonna be unless I want to fork out some serious cash last minute (if that's even an option). Who knows maybe this new teacher will be even better (fingers crossed) and at the end of the day what is important is how Shaylee's doing with all this. As of now she's okay with going to a new class. She said she's sad that she wont get to do all those extra activities, but who knows maybe she'll enjoy coming home early even more. So we'll have to wait and see how her first day went and if she's happy being able to come earlier. As far as the teacher goes.... we haven't even met her yet so we'll give her a chance. As far as feeling that maybe I made the wrong choice. Well, it is what it is. The decisions was made months ago and..................

it's only kindergarten right???

Okay, so maybe I'm still trying to convince myself, but I know in the end it'll all work out and I'll wonder why I stressed so much over it.

Coming in the near future (hopefully today or tomorrow).....

Check out our family blog for details on Shay's first day